A new pirate picture :)

And a new costume for the Edwardian/Steampunk era :)

Other than that I'm doing just fine...down to 210lbs and hopefully will be in one-derland soon.  Will write more later probably...feels like a bloggy kinda day.

Moar Pirate photos!

Uber Curvy Pirate

This is me a few months ago in one of my pirate costumes - and I'm about 265 here....tomorrow's photos should be better!

Hullo there!

Alrighty just a quickie update on where I'm at in this lil journey o'mine....from my highest recorded weight I'm down 29lbs!!! Yeaaah baybee! 

And I tried on my Renn Faire costume (yes I'm that kinda girl) and it fit SO much better than it did last time!  I'm going to Faire tomorrow so I'm really excited that I'll be way more comfortable than I was last time.

On that note - Faire should be interesting considering I won't be drinking....all day.  Full disclosure - I plan on attempting 1 8 oz glass of port while I'm there. :) As for things I can eat - there's not much.  I may nibble on a friends lunch if she'll let me though lol.  And what's really awesome is since I won't need to spend monies on food or drink - I'll have more for pretty shiny things!!

I'm feeling really good these days - I know I'm still in the honeymoon phase - but I'm enjoying it while it lasts.

My weight loss has been pretty consistent since the surgery.  About a pound to a pound and a half...a DAY! No seriously.  Yes I'm super excited. :) 

Except for two of my closest friends, my mom, boss and husband I haven't told anyone that I've had the surgery.  I did have lunch with a friend yesterday and she said I looked amazing - like color of my skin, etc. and asked what I was doing.  I HATE lying but I told her I was watching carbs, etc. 

Anywho...that's how I'm doing right now. :)  I'll probably post then/now pictures after Faire tomorrow.

1 Week Post Op

Today marks one week from the day my life changed. 

One week ago today I was laying in a hospital bed...

Four score and seven days ago...

This blogging business is hard! :) Anywho...I'm trying to say that a week ago I had surgery in a clever way. But really I just want to vent about what's on my mind.  At the moment I'm thinking I should take some more medication, that I need to check work email again, and it's time for another sip of water. 

I'm sipping my water out of a Riedel glass.  It's a big bottomed wine glass that easily fits half a bottle of wine.  Yeah I know I'm not supposed to fill it all the way up - have to leave room for swishing...but some nights that thing was full to the brim.  I don't miss drinking.  Well kind of. I miss being *altered*.  I miss being able to let go completely and giggle over nothing. You're probably thinking - why can't you do that now? Well...I don't know.  I get very serious and I can't shake it.  I worry too much about past present and future. I carry with me way too much pain and while I should be able to let it all go...I can't. I never have been able to.

So before I started drinking (which was around 21) I used food up until high school.  Then it was sex.  Then it was shopping.  Then it was drinking. And eating. And smoking. And shopping. And sex. And *other*. So now that I've eliminated the eating aspect and the drinking aspect my goal is to not fill that void with something else.  However, I've already started to fill it with shopping.  Granted it's all been stuff for the house. And a couple new outfits (I still have stitches and I can't wear slacks to work just yet so I bought a comfy sweater dress...and another dress...and some tights).  But at least I'm aware of what I'm doing - mindfully ignoring the red flags and proceeding on so I don't have to deal with any feeling that I don't want to deal with.

I'm also filling my time with my new business.  I love that I'm using my paid vacation time to get my own business running.  I really should be working on a business plan right now but instead I'm blogging. Blogging to no one.  Well maybe someone is reading this.  Honestly I'd prefer it if there was no one reading it - okay that's obviously not true because if it was I wouldn't be posting on a public blog. 

Anywho...back to the whole one week post op thing.  I was going to post a video on that - but the youtubes is down right now so I'll post it later.  In short - it's not been easy. Than again it's not been the worst thing I've ever been through either.  There is a shift going on though I can feel it. Internally and externally.  Truthfully the internal change is the one I'm most interested in. I feel different.  Maybe it's because I'm on lortab most of the time (liquid vicodin) and when it wears off old ways and views will set back in.  I hope not.  I'm feeling more focused than I did before (yes even on lortab) more hopeful about what I'll be able to do once all this weight is gone.

I'm still debating on whether or not I want to directly tell people about my surgery. By people I mean friends. I suppose I'm not telling them because I'm worried about what they'll think of me.  What would they think of me if I lied and said I didn't have surgery I just magically lost 100lbs in a rapid way?  Actually what's interesting is I thought someone I knew had the surgery and didn't tell anyone and I thought that was pretty lame of her to not tell us and lie to us about eating healthy, etc.  As it turns out she didn't have the surgery (she gained all the weight and then some back).  I hate to admit this but it made me feel...superior when that happened.  I know I'm not - but still it's just this thing that I think women do - we want our friends to be happy but not happier than us.  That's a horrible thing to say - and most will say it's not true.  But I think on some level it is.

Anyway...I'm out of words to type :) whenever youtuuubes is back up and running I'll post that other video. So much easier to listen to me babble than read it I'm assuming.  Oh and it's even better because I decided to point the camera at something else whilst I babble on and on and on and on.. :)

Thanks for listening...

The Big Day!

It happened.

It's done.

That wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be!

Now for the fun part :)

My Video Babbling Continues:  The Big Day: Before, After, and Beyond!

Pureed Deliciousness!!

Hello there!

So I wanted to do a quick review of Blossom Foods and their pureed products.

OMG IT'S FRIGGEN FANTASTIC!!

Now THAT'S a quick review! :)

Alrighty here's a few more details:

Average cost of a meal:  About $3.00
Varieties (pureed foods): 

Apple Pie BBQ Beef Brisket-individual Blueberry Custard Bread Pudding Bread Stuffing Breakfast Sausage Buttered Corn Buttered Peas Butternut squash Cherry Cobbler Chicken & Dumplings Chicken Enchiladas Creamed Corn Creamed Spinach Egg Casserole French Toast Green Beans Ham and Cheese Omelets

Meatloaf Pasta Alfredo Pasta with Pesto Peach Pie Pepper Beef Pot roast Potato Casserole Ravioli - Marinara Sauce Roast Carrots Roast Turkey Shepherd's Pie Simmered Chicken in Vegetables Simmered Pork & Vegetables Strawberry Custard Sweet Potato Pie Vegetable Lasagna Western Omelets

And they update their menu pretty often! 

Your tasty viddle comes in a 4.5 oz container that you pop in the microwave for about 1-2 minutes (I put mine in for about 30 seconds at a time and stirred it in between heatings).  You can keep these in the freezer for UP TO A YEAR! Side note:  I bought some adorable dipping dishes at Target and I put the meal in that for the right size and a nice presentation.

Nutritional Info

The owner Sue is really nice and super fast with responses to questions or concerns.

I'm really excited about this product and I'm sure that it'll make the "baby food" phase easier to deal with.